Chronic Illness Diaries: Fears I don't say out loud

Hi friends! This is another one of my chronic illness diaries, dedicated to the fears I don't say out loud. Let me know if you can relate.

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Chronic Illness Diaries: Fears I don't say out loud

I am scared of not being believed, especially on good days. I think often people with chronic illness tend to fake "being well".

I am scared of not being independent enough. Growing up, I was taught NOT to ask for help, so this one is hard for me.

I am scared of how my health impacts my family (e.g., Luke, my mum overseas, Benji).

I am scared of being labelled as "lazy", "weak", or "over-dramatising" things.

I am scared of losing friends, especially when I make plans with them and need to reschedule.

I am scared of being a burden.

I'm scared of not being understood, no matter how hard I try to explain what's going on.

I'm scared of what the future looks like for me with chronic illness.

I'm scared of losing my sparkle.

I'm scared of how much of "me" I've lost in the process. I grieve the old me a lot.

Thank you for reading. Sometimes writing is much easier than putting things into words.

Ash xoxo